My relationships with the admin(s) are not different than the relationship between Islamic fundamentals and Prime minister or President of the islamic Governments. But sometime I seriously ask myself
“ How long I am going to talk like a 10 years old kid, life is too short to be rude with people around”
I always say but I never act upon. Though i used to study with nice and decent people and after the death of my parents ,i spent time in hostels, everything was great .So many times I feel regretting by behaving nasty but another morning I awake up with same nasty brain .
But the question is why? Do I feel happiness after hurting and putting the other people down? I hired a consultant from Boston consulting group to get know this answer. He sent a pdf file to me
HP you sucks and you always look for cheap attention ,no matter if it is in real life or on Cyber world, it will take you to no where,so get a life and pay us the consultancy fee ....
I tried so many times to be decent but I think my dream wouldn’t fulfill in this world . I only behave nice when people are looking at me and i am in crowd. For example if an old woman come in Bus or train ,i will ask her to sit at my place but if the same woman meet me at a place where no one is around ,i would say"it is nice to stand ,it is a good exercise"
Jesus ,I would like to confess ,I don’t want me to like that anymore ,I would like to be nice ,sweet person . Jesus I bought a book” How to become nice in 2 weeks” but it was only about girls :0(. Jesus show me the right path , so everyone love me including eastern jewel .
Come on hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living.
I sit and talk to god
And he just laughs at my plans,
My head speaks a language, I don’t understand.
I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the Dubai forums that I live in.
I don’t wanna get banned again
But I ain’t keen on living sweet either.
That’s why I keep on running.
Before I’ve arrived, I can see myself coming.